Being Patient is All About, Pt. 1

Lor­na saw her father com­ing from across the street. The sun was behind his head, but she knew his shape, his lope, that old big man who brought her from Cochin to Kowloon and then all the way to Okla­homa, just to leave her alone in Bartlesville. She was sit­ting on the hydrant at the cor­ner of John­stone and Fourth with her sheet music at her feet. The only thing that could shake her up her more than see­ing Father, our Father any­where out­side in the day­time would be if Chi Chi ever came close to pick­ing her up on time. That will hap­pen, but Dad­dy-man was cross­ing the street right now.

Stand­ing beside him was a lit­tle girl with yel­low hair. She was wear­ing a satin Roy­als jack­et and pink tights, and she came up to her father’s rib cage. Lor­na imag­ined the kind of moth­er that would make a kid dress like that, a gray house dress with soft legs and soft arms stick­ing out, fat fin­gers pulling stringy yel­low hair and forc­ing small pink tights onto kick­ing legs, pulling lit­tle hands through the lemon satin sleeves. She imag­ined TGWYH walk­ing to school in her tights and her coat, and the soft arms dri­ving slow­ly a hun­dred yards behind her to make sure she didn’t take the jack­et off. TGWYH seems obe­di­ent if you looked at her from behind, but spin around and get a good look at her face, you can see vol­cano eyes, and you know there will come a day when nobody would ever touch her again. Lor­na looked up again, and that’s when she saw her father take TGWYH’s hand.

She pan­icked. She tried to slide back­wards off the hydrant and run away, but her knees buck­led, and she rolled on to the side­walk. Did he have anoth­er fam­i­ly ? Did he have anoth­er daugh­ter that he loved more than he loved her ? Lor­na duck­walked behind a bus bench, hold­ing her skirt so her pleats wouldn’t flap in the wind. She couldn’t remem­ber hold­ing his hand ever in her life.

When they stepped out of the street up onto the side­walk, Lor­na saw that this was no lit­tle girl. She was an Oom­pa Loom­pa with hips and tits and pink lip­stick. Lorna’s ridicu­lous heart ham­mered against her ribs. She closed her eyes and wait­ed for him to see her and ask her questions.

Where is your moth­er?” he’d ask. “What are you doing here?” She wait­ed for her heart to slap twelve times and she opened her eyes. He was gone. He and the pink dwarf had passed by his own and only spawn, passed by her tar-black bowl of hair and her over­sized port­fo­lio of sheet music, and now they were walk­ing into the Cop­per Bar.

Lor­na stood up and wiped her palms on her skirt. By the time La Madre pulled up to the curb in the Naz­i­mo­bile, she under­stood she had the pow­er to dis­ap­pear, and she couldn’t stop think­ing of all the ways she was going to use it.


Chisato Aoi­ki will steal your heart and play it like a Kawai. Chisato Aoi­ki doesn’t have a key to your heart — she has 88 of them. Chisato Aoi­ki plays the Kawai Mod­el 500 Grand Piano, so shouldn’t you ? Chisato Aoi­ki sat as still as a stone while she played watered down jazz at the Au Lapin Agile in Yoko­hama in 1985. She could play. She could play Bill Evans on a good night, but she nev­er had a good night. The Phillips engi­neers who came into the bar want­ed to hear Burt Bacharach and Ray Charles. She’d made a record, she’d played on tele­vi­sion, she was the face of a piano com­pa­ny all over Japan, but she lived at home and her moth­er still tied a braid­ed cot­ton rope that was sta­pled to the piano leg around her ankle every after­noon until she prac­ticed for three hours, as she had done every day since Chisato was sev­en. So when Paul Mal­loy bought her a Long Island Iced Tea and told her she was bet­ter than Toshiko Ashiyo­ki, she knew this was her chance. She was twen­ty-nine, he was six­ty-two, she was a vir­gin and he’d nev­er been mar­ried. She went out for air between sets one night and nev­er came back.

Were you a beau­ti­ful man?” she asked him as they board­ed a plane to Ban­ga­lore. He didn’t reply. “When you were younger, I mean.” He walked down the aisle until they found their seats. He let her have the win­dow and he wedged his long legs into the aisle and ran his hands down the front of his aran jumper, straight­en­ing the weave before he closed his eyes. She began to feel bad for ask­ing him the ques­tion. He hadn’t seemed sen­si­tive about his age before, but she knew noth­ing about men.

I was if I’m beau­ti­ful now. I’ve looked like this for­ev­er.” He spoke with his eyes closed. By the time they were in the air and he was asleep on her shoul­der, she had con­vinced her­self that this was the best answer. Ever.

Chisato played the piano twice more before Lor­na was born, and then she nev­er played again. The first time was the funer­al for Paul’s trans­la­tor, Nalin, who threw him­self in front of a train in Ban­ga­lore. The organ­ist was ill, so she played from the hym­nal in the Methodist Church on Myr­tle Street, bored and resent­ful of the tem­pos. The last time was on roof of the Taj Mal­abar hotel. Some friends had thrown a par­ty for Paul when he found out he was being trans­ferred to Okla­homa. Some­body noticed an old upright piano under a tarp behind the bar. A few oth­ers rolled it out and asked her to play. Paul want­ed her to play. She want­ed to play too, some­thing grand and roman­tic for him, for them. But when she sat down, she couldn’t remem­ber any­thing. She looked at Paul, but he was look­ing up at the sky. She tapped some Chopin with her right hand while she tried to decide what to play, but she had trou­ble remem­ber­ing even those lines she’d played a thou­sand times before. She trailed off and began to tell Paul she didn’t know what was wrong, but a few drops of rain splashed across the piano and then a del­uge hissed every­one inside. When she learned she was preg­nant a few days lat­er, it made what hap­pened make sense, but she nev­er want­ed to play again.

She spent the last three months of her preg­nan­cy learn­ing to dri­ve a 1972 Mer­cedes 280SL around the snowy roads of Okla­homa. It had belonged to Paul’s broth­er in Kansas, but it sat for­got­ten under a hayloft for years after he died. The seats were cracked and brit­tle. The sus­pen­sion float­ed and rolled around each cor­ner. The heater only worked when it was turned to high. But Chisato had nev­er dri­ven before, and even if she had, she could nev­er have imag­ined the roads in north­ern Okla­homa. At first, she stayed close to home. She would turn south onto East Moun­tain Road, and then pull into the first wide dri­ve on the oth­er side of the road. She’d nego­ti­ate some mul­ti­ple of a three point turn and then head back home. Next, she found High­way 123. Then it was Nowa­ta Road, then Bartlesville Road : all flat, fat, and emp­ty. On days when the roads were dry, she pushed past eighty and laid off only when her palms were too slip­pery to turn the wheel. She pulled over to nap for a while, and then she drove again until she was hun­gry. She didn’t eat any­where but in her own kitchen or pee any­where but in her own toi­let, so the month before the baby came, she could dri­ve to the health food store north of John­stone for salt cod and dark tea, and then back again.

Lor­na was born in the spring, a day after her father’s 63rd birth­day. Lat­er, when she was six­teen and on the run, she liked to tell boys, “I wasn’t born as much as I fell out, and nobody seemed to notice me.” They didn’t get the ref­er­ence, but it wasn’t far from the truth. Lor­na was qui­et from the start. She made peo­ple uncom­fort­able because she didn’t cry or fuss, and she stayed still wher­ev­er her moth­er put her down. Paul got laughs when he pulled a camp­ing mir­ror from his coat to show guests that the baby was breathing.

On Thanks­giv­ing, Chisato tack­led a turkey for Paul and his fam­i­ly. She got up while it was still dark and began to chop and roast and bake. She put Lor­na in a nest of tow­els on the kitchen table and got to work rolling out pie crusts and truss­ing the bird. When she turned some sausages in the pan, grease splashed across her arms and onto the floor. She ran to the sink to flush her skin with cold water, but when she turned around the kitchen was on fire. She couldn’t reach the baby – with just one step toward the table, her lungs burned and her hair siz­zled against her face. She ran out the small ser­vice door behind her, across the breeze­way, and around to the front door. It was locked. She didn’t know what to do. Her palms began to blis­ter. She couldn’t hear the baby cry, but then the baby nev­er cried. Neigh­bors look­ing out their win­dows saw lazy puffs of smoke rise above the yel­low Chi­nese pis­tache trees, and they began to call for help. When the first engine arrived, Chisato was still try­ing to open the front door, and she seemed sur­prised that any­body knew what was hap­pen­ing inside her home.

My baby is inside.” She said it again to the fire fight­er who was pulling her away from the door. “A baby is inside.”

The fire fight­er yelled out, “We got a baby,” and he ran to the truck. The rest of the crew dropped the lad­ders and hoses and ran back for oxy­gen. Then they ran into the house. A moment lat­er, the Cap­tain stepped up behind her, his hel­met under his arm and his face The Cap­tain stepped over with his hel­met under his arm.

Ma’am ? Where is the baby?”

In the kitchen,” Chisato said.

My guys don’t see a baby, Ma’am.” The Cap­tain was wip­ing soot from his eye. Chisato turned to go into the house and he stopped her with the bill of his hel­met against her shoul­der. “Is there a baby?”

In the kitchen. On the table,” she said. He spoke into his shoul­der radio while star­ing at her with his good eye.

She says it’s in the kitchen. On the table.”

And a sec­ond lat­er the reply. “Neg­a­tive. Table’s gone.”

Chisato began to dig her fin­ger­nail into her chest, her gray skin bloom­ing yel­low like the smoke in the pis­tache trees.

What’s your name ? Do you live here?” The Cap­tain wasn’t angry, just tired. This wouldn’t be the first pyro wish-mom­my he’d run into, but it made putting out the fire that much slow­er. She wouldn’t look at him now. Instead, she brought her hand down behind her as though she were about to sit down. And then her knees buck­led under­neath her. The Cap­tain took her arm as she col­lapsed and helped her to the ground as gen­tly as pos­si­ble. “Easy. Easy. I’m going to get you some help.” He spoke into his radio again, call­ing for the EMTs and some water.

Chisato couldn’t let the idea of her daugh­ter being hurt or dead infect her mind, so she tried to visu­al­ize the sheet music she mem­o­rized as a girl, the pages of hand-drawn staffs and notes and dynam­ics. Which is why her response was a low sfz to ppp moan – Bartok’s Sustenu­to ? Duke Elling­ton ? The Cap­tain was sure she was stroking out.

Where’s that water?” he asked. A fire­fight­er came around the cor­ner hold­ing some­thing tight to his chest.

Got it,” he said. But he meant the baby. He meant Lor­na. “She was wrapped up in a tow­el.” The Cap­tain lift­ed Chisato to her feet, and she pulled back the tow­el, still hum­ming. Lorna’s face was sooty and her eyes were red, but she didn’t make a sound.

Paul drove to the hos­pi­tal angry. Angry he had to learn about the fire from Mrs. Nunn across the street, angry that Chisato left the baby inside while she ran out onto the lawn (Mrs. Nunn watched from her kitchen win­dow ; she called Paul after she fin­ished clean­ing her turkey and could take off her rub­ber gloves). He was angry he hadn’t been there to help, that he’d have to explain where he was so ear­ly on Thanks­giv­ing morn­ing. He walked into the Emer­gency Room wait­ing room and saw her sit­ting in the chair clos­est to the Intake window.

Where is she?” Chisato didn’t say any­thing. She looked at him for a moment. Then she leapt up and hurled her­self into his body, cry­ing with her face buried in his chest. Paul could feel her sobs in his ribs. He put his arms around her and shut his eyes so he could visu­al­ize the worst : a tiny cas­ket, a grave stone with a small lamb perched on top, a dark and qui­et recep­tion back at the house. But Lor­na was fine. The Intake Nurse said her blood O2 lev­els were good and her res­pi­ra­tion was strong. She could go home with them lat­er that day.

She sure is a troop­er,” the nurse said, “She nev­er made a sound.” Chisato nev­er asked him where he’d been that morn­ing, only if he could for­give her. When he looked at her, her face seemed com­pact­ed by anguish ; her hands felt like they were wrapped in glas­sine. She’d suf­fered already. He had to for­give her, but he couldn’t for­give Lor­na for being too god­damn good a baby.


It start­ed as a joke. Chisato looped a Christ­mas rib­bon from the ped­al to Lorna’s ankle because it made her smile. Paul didn’t like it, but Lor­na didn’t mind. She stood on the bench and played the room like a cir­cus bark­er, wav­ing her hands and falling on her bum for laughs. When the laughs stopped, she turned around and start­ed on the piano. She machine-gunned a key until her fin­ger throbbed then climbed up to watch the strings vibrate. She feath­ered a key just enough to make the ham­mer fall. She crawled inside the piano and tapped down on the keys with a vio­lin bow. She sat high and played low, and then she hopped onto the vibrat­ing strings to mute them with her knees. She didn’t know her shins were lac­er­at­ed and bleed­ing until Paul yanked her out and car­ried her by her wrist to the kitchen sink.

After that, Paul locked the fall­board, and Chisato replaced the rib­bon with a short rope. Lor­na could slide across the bench, but she couldn’t stand on it, and she couldn’t walk away until she prac­ticed. By six, she was giv­ing recitals. By nine, she was bring­ing home rib­bons. She worked hard and nev­er com­plained, but the rope remained. Chisato nev­er knew Lor­na hat­ed the piano and hat­ed her until her audi­tion with Ted Sgam­bati at the Led­bet­ter Con­ser­va­to­ry on her twelfth birth­day. The piano room was small. Sgam­bati sat in a black club chair near the piano, and Chisato sat on a met­al chair near the door. Before she began, Lor­na pulled a rope out of her skirt pock­et and tied one end to the piano leg and the oth­er end around her ankle. Chisato want­ed to cross the room and squeeze Lorna’s arm, but she noticed the Mae­stro writ­ing in his note­book with a half smile, so she stayed by the door — Sgam­bati had a rep­u­ta­tion for turn­ing prodi­gies into stars.

Lor­na began to play, but her tem­po was errat­ic. Chisato didn’t know Sgam­bati also had a rep­u­ta­tion for fondling his prodi­gies, which is why he lived in Okla­homa rather than return to Rome where he faced charges and pos­si­bly prison. Lor­na was play­ing very slow­ly now, and too qui­et­ly, mak­ing Chopin’s Noc­turnes sound like a creepy hor­ror movie sound­track. Sgam­bati stopped smil­ing and shift­ed in his seat. Then Lor­na paused, her fin­gers an inch above the keys.

What is wrong with her?” Sgam­bati asked.

Lor­na,” Chisato said. “Lor­na!”

Lor­na and her eyes on the key­board. Chisato got up and went to the piano and snapped Lor­na on the back of her head. Sgam­bati was alarmed and jumped to his feet, his note­book falling to the floor. Chisato snapped her again, and Lor­na began to pound the keys as hard as she could. Her expres­sion didn’t change but her body bounced as she banged.

Mrs. Mal­loy!” Sgam­bati said. “That’s not nec­es­sary.” Chisato didn’t seem to hear him ; she tried to yank the rope off the piano leg. Sgam­bati pulled on her shoul­der, but she yanked again and Lor­na crashed to the floor. Chisato start­ed to scold her, but the old man stomped his foot so hard the win­dow pane rattled.

I’m sor­ry,” he said, but he meant get the hell out, because he had spun Chisato around and was push­ing her out the door. Lor­na pulled the rope off her ankle and rubbed her head and her leg until they didn’t sting any­more. They were talk­ing out­side in the hall. She saw his note­book on the floor and crawled over and picked it up. She saw a draw­ing of her­self, naked, with a rope around her leg and her hands tied behind her back. Her eyes were shut and her mouth was open like a dark round hole. She didn’t like her big eyes, but her legs were per­fect. She didn’t know what it all meant, but she under­stood it right away.

Sì sì,” the Mae­stro was say­ing as they came back inside. His smoker’s tongue made it sound like “Chi chi”, but when he saw the note­book still open in her hands his voice fell off to a whis­per. She stood up and looked at him. His eyes were small and dull and set deep in his face. She hand­ed him his book.

I’m sor­ry I’m not very good.” She walked out of the room. Her moth­er fol­lowed her out and they both got into the car.

Do you have any­thing to say to me?”

No, Chi Chi.”

You have to apol­o­gize to me.”

Chisato wiped some­thing from her eye. Lor­na leaned for­ward and could see some tears start­ing to grow.

I’m sor­ry, Chi Chi.”

Chisato laughed. “He was a strange man.”

I want­ed to eat his eyes.” Lor­na opened the visor mir­ror and opened her mouth like she was going to scream.

His eyes?” Chisato start­ed the car.

They looked like the olives in bread.” She stretched her mouth even wider and let her eye­lids relax.

Are you going to tell me what hap­pened in there ? Why did you play like that?”

I was ner­vous, Chi Chi.”

No you weren’t. You did it on purpose.”

Lor­na pushed her lips out and nar­rowed her mouth until every­thing looked perfect.


A few days lat­er, Lor­na was behind the house mur­der­ing ants with her father’s mag­ni­fy­ing glass. She herd­ed them them to a crack in the cement and burned them as they tried to climb out. At first it wasn’t the killing she liked so much, but how a cir­cle of sun­light no big­ger than her fin­ger­nail could hide death inside itself. But soon a mass grave was grow­ing in the crevasse, evi­dence of her war crimes, and she decid­ed to see if she could wound rather than kill. She anchored her elbows and blew her hair off her cheek. Her skirt tick­led the back of her knees so she she scis­sored her legs up and down until it rode over her under­wear. When she looked back, she saw Chi Chi watch­ing her in from the kitchen win­dow. She left her skirt up and went back to mur­der­ing. Some of the ants in her pile were still alive, and she was try­ing to decide which ones deserved to live. She split a blade of grass to lift the wound­ed up to safe­ty when a hand yanked her skirt back over her bottom.

Get your sheet music and get in the car.”

No way, Jose,” Lor­na said, but she did it any­way. Chi Chi was too good at being qui­et. She grabbed the rope too, fig­ur­ing she was on her way to anoth­er audi­tion. Instead, her moth­er drove into down­town and pulled over at the cor­ner of Fourth and Dewey.

Go up to the sec­ond floor.”

What for?”

Your les­son. I’ll pick you up in an hour.”

Why aren’t you coming?”

It’s not my les­son. Go.”

Lor­na had nev­er done any­thing like go into a build­ing alone or go up a flight of stairs to find some­one she didn’t know. Now she’d get slashed or killed because Chi Chi was too lazy to get out of the car and be a moth­er. She slid out of the car and shut the door with her foot walk­ing away. Chisato wait­ed until she was all the way inside before she drove away. Lor­na clomped her way up the con­crete steps to the land­ing on the sec­ond floor, its green car­pet yel­lowed by the sun and high glass atri­um. She walked down the land­ing until she came to a door with a small gold plac­ard that read The Right Staff with a tre­ble clef on one side and a bass clef on the oth­er. While she was deci­pher­ing it, the door swung open, and a kid and her moth­er pushed into Lor­na on their way out. Lor­na swung back­wards and almost fell, but the mom grabbed her arm and helped her get her balance.

Sor­ry — these doors open out for some rea­son. Are you okay?”

A heavy guy and a girl with hair down to her waist came to the door to see what hap­pened. The girl had sil­ver rings on each of her fin­gers. The guy had blue pince-nez sun­glass­es. Lor­na hoped he was her teacher, because who plays piano with rings ?

Are you Lor­na ? Is your mom here?”

She dropped me off.”

Oh, shoot. Real­ly ? We need­ed to talk with her,” said the guy.

We can talk to her when she picks her up. Come on in. I’m Bina. This is Troy.”

It turned out they both were her teach­ers, grad­u­ate stu­dents from Tul­sa, and even though she tried not to, Lor­na liked them right away. For the first half hour, they just sat down and talked with her about school and TV and friends. Lor­na didn’t have friends or watch TV, and she didn’t know any­thing about her school because she was start­ing mid­dle school next fall. But it didn’t mat­ter. Troy and Bina went to Madi­son too, and they told her about the good drink­ing foun­tains and the bad bath­rooms. Bina told her about Mrs. Grady the art teacher who picked her nose dur­ing assem­blies and wiped them on her shoe. Lor­na snort­ed out a laugh so fero­cious that she had to blow her nose.

Then Troy and Bina each played some­thing on the piano for Lor­na, “so she could get an idea where they were com­ing from.” She didn’t know what that meant, and she didn’t rec­og­nize the music they played, but she could tell they knew what they were doing. When they were talk­ing, Troy blinked a lot and was always touch­ing his col­lar or rub­bing his fin­gers togeth­er, but when he played, he was almost still, and his eyes didn’t blink at all. He had huge hands, and his runs were so fast and per­cus­sive that the pen­cils on the book­shelf danced in their jar. (Lat­er in the sum­mer, he start­ed call­ing them “fuck you runs” because “If you got them or if you didn’t, either way they made you say fuck you.”)

But Lor­na liked Bina’s play­ing more, like she was look­ing for a secret in the music nobody had heard before. She played slow but with des­tiny. And she was beau­ti­ful. Her wrists were thin, her fin­gers cop­pery and cal­loused, and the way the light danced off her rings made her hands look elec­tric. When it was Lorna’s turn to play some­thing for them, she real­ized that she loved to play the piano.

They gave her Carl Vine’s Sonata No. 1 to work on first. She hadn’t heard music like that before, and she was sure she was play­ing it all wrong – the dis­so­nant runs, the sim­ple sap­py parts, the car­toon­ish dynam­ics – she was ready to give up until her moth­er walked past one morn­ing with a wrin­kled nose shak­ing her head. Lor­na now prac­ticed two times a day, morn­ings and after­noons. She dis­sect­ed the piece into small phras­es of a few mea­sures at a time and played them quar­ter tem­po dozens of times in a row until she played per­fect­ly. The faster runs had to be done one hand at a time until she could put them both togeth­er. Then all again half tem­po. It took the rest of June to get that far, and she knew Chi Chi had to be hat­ing it, because she didn’t ask what the piece was or how lessons were going ; she didn’t ask how Lor­na liked her teach­ers or why she start­ed wear­ing a sil­ver ring on each hand. Even when Lor­na wan­dered back to the piano one more time late at night after she’d tak­en a bath and was sup­posed to be in bed, Chisato was silent.

The only time Paul said any­thing was when Lor­na start­ed yelling “Fuck You” while work­ing on a dif­fi­cult run. It was the Fourth of July week­end, and there all his work peo­ple over for pig and fire­works. Some of them brought their kids who ran around the yard with sparklers, scream­ing like Paul was turn­ing a small pig on a spit in the fire pit and Chi Chi was in the kitchen mak­ing pota­to sal­ad and drink­ing wine. Lor­na want­ed to watch the pig and see what hap­pened to its eyes, but she didn’t want any­body to con­fuse her with the reg­u­lar kids and tell her to run around like a mon­key for no rea­son. So she prac­ticed a par­tic­u­lar­ly dis­so­nant pas­sage, fin­ish­ing with a Fuck­y­ou that grew loud­er each time she messed up. Some of the oth­er kids heard her through the win­dow and told the rest what was going on. Soon Paul and some of the work peo­ple wan­dered over to inves­ti­gate. Lor­na final­ly played the pas­sage per­fect­ly at full tem­po, and she yelled “Fuck You, Run!” and slammed her palms down on the key­board. She heard the screen door in the kitchen slam open, and she got up and walked into the den to see what was happening.

Paul and the work peo­ple were laugh­ing. Chi Chi was stand­ing behind him with her back to the house and her head up to the night sky. Paul tried to hand Chisato a beer : “Don’t make any­thing of it. It’s fun­ny, real­ly. You got­ta admit she’s get­ting pret­ty good.” A cou­ple of the work peo­ple were play­ing air piano and yelling a boozy Fuck you ! at the same time.

Lor­na felt nailed to the ground. She’d nev­er heard her father say any­thing about her before, good or bad. Now was Chi Chi going to kick the pig into the dirt and run away in tears ? Would she laugh and start say­ing fuck you to every­body ? She was in a no-win sit­u­a­tion and Lor­na began to feel for her. But then Chi Chi just turned around and gath­ered up the emp­ty plas­tic cups and paper plates on the table, and when one of the mon­keys told her the dip was the best he’d ever had, she thanked him by pat­ting him on the head before she went back into the kitchen.

The sum­mer was her ally. She felt a kin­ship with the cicadas and the dry light­ning and the long shad­ows of evening that gave way to sliv­ered moons and con­stel­la­tions that sparkled as bright as satel­lites. She played the piano. She lin­gered after her lessons, pulling sto­ries out of Bina about New Mex­i­co and the Apache way of things. Even after Chisato honked her horn down on the street, Lor­na would pre­tend she didn’t hear it so that Bina might keep going. But at the end of August, Bina asked Lor­na to play the Vine Sonata all the way through. Lor­na wasn’t ready and didn’t want to do it.

That’s okay, you don’t have to, but I thought it’d be nice to see how far you’ve come for our last lesson.”

It’s not our last.”

Well it is for now. Didn’t your mom tell you?”

Tell me what?”

Well, Troy and me have to go back to Tul­sa for school. We just teach the sum­mers in Bartlesville. We told her back in June, but maybe she forgot.”

She didn’t for­get. She’s a god­damn bitch,” Lor­na said. But she real­ized that maybe Chi Chi did for­get. Lor­na was start­ing mid­dle school next week, and she and Paul had been argu­ing a lot late­ly too. But so what, she was a bitch for forgetting.

Well don’t fall in love with your new teacher too much ; we’ll be back next sum­mer, okay?”

Okay.” Bina gave her a turquoise pinky ring on a chain, and Lor­na hugged her tight until she was sure she wasn’t going to cry. The horn honked, and this time Lor­na ran out the door.